Life is leveling out somewhat. I think we’re both finally feeling a little more at ease and “settled” in our new city, house, jobs, and in general. I’m still not getting to loads of things like the blog (obviously), reading as actively as before, and numerous personal projects, many of which I can’t name because of the gift-like nature and I don’t want to spoil any surprises. 😉

Regarding the blog, as much as I’ve enjoyed it in the past, it was a format for me to stay in touch with friends and family that were out of reach. Now, we see many of these folks on a monthly or more frequent basis, and we’re all on the same time zone again so it’s making it easier to communicate via phone, text, and facebook now. I’m finding less and less need for the blog in that sense.

I also enjoyed sharing our experiences with products, books, movies, and the like with the larger world out there and over time I picked up a few followers whom I view as friends, even if we’ve never met in the flesh. It’s been hard to let those connections slide. I miss seeing what you’re all doing on your blogs (my blog reader is up to 500+ unread posts. 😦 ) But I’ve also felt an immense sense of freedom since mentally letting go of some of these things and spending my free time in different ways such as:

• Weeding/tending our copiously landscaped property
• Working on projects around the house to tailor it to our style
• Spending time with co-workers after-hours
• Getting together with friends and family in person regularly

I’m not sure what that means for the blog long-term. I still have a laundry list of posts I could write one of these days. I have a partly completed draft on making your own horseradish (which I highly recommend BTW) but the time it takes to insert and manipulate all the images, find related articles, add the appropriate tags, in addition to just writing content, is daunting. Writing content like this is much easier and less time-consuming than weaving a story together with photos, tags, and related content. Honestly, I don’t know how I was doing it before.

Well, that’s not true. Life had a different rhythm in Louisiana. Don was away from home. A lot. I had long nights and weekends to myself that I frequently filled with blogging. It gave me something to focus on, provided me a way to say in touch with people, and generally helped me feel connected even though I was often alone. I would sometimes spend a whole day prepping a week or more worth of posts so that when he was home I could easily just publish something that was ready to go and be free to spend his time home together. We have a much different routine now. Don is almost always home – which is a good thing, lol. And we have our hands full, not just with wanting to spend time together but with projects to customize the house and with just generally keeping up a house that is twice the size of what we had before, plus a yard which we didn’t have at all previously.

In addition to all that, my days are full at my new job. I’m learning a new industry so it’s more than just learning new, proprietary systems. My days are filled to the brim with attending meetings, quizzing co-workers on how-to’s, listening to workshops, studying manuals and reading articles, and desperately trying to process work that comes my way correctly. Unfortunately for the blog, that means that when I come home, the last thing I want to do is spend another 2+ hours sitting at a computer, regardless of how much I enjoy writing or sharing. When I HAVE to face the computer at home, to pay bills, balance our finances, or respond to mail or email that can’t be ignored (any longer than however long I’ve already let it sit!), it makes me cranky. 😉

It has become apparent to me that I’m stepping back from the blog considerably. Heck, it’s taken me three freaking days to complete this “easy” post! I do hope/want to make occasional appearances but the frequency is going to be greatly reduced. If you’ve been following me because we have shared interests and you’d like to connect with me on facebook, please feel free to look me up, you can find me here. 🙂

Best wishes…I will try to be back soon. With that horseradish post. 😉

“Face your life, its pain, its pleasure, leave no path untaken.”
~ Neil Gaiman, The Graveyard Book

Creative Energy (or lack thereof)

I have so many unwritten posts and topics that are overdue. I’m afraid they will be ‘old news’ and irrelevant if I don’t catch up soon. I still haven’t posted pictures of the long haul from Louisiana to Washington (we have at least finally looked at the pictures together); I have home improvement and gardening projects I could share; I have movies we’ve watched and I’ve not written up; I’m reading again (slowly) and will soon have books to review; we’ve been cooking with The Cobb again and I’ve wanted to share those stories as well.

But finding time and the creative energy to write is a challenge, to say the least. I’ve tried scheduling time slots for myself and I’ve tried just diving in and attempting to write in a window of opportunity when it’s come up. But I’ve come to realize that I cannot force the creative inspiration. And what really kills me is that I’ve written, I don’t know how many drafts (in my head) while driving back and forth to work, while doing the dishes, cooking dinner, weeding the garden, painting the porch steps, going to sleep… Yet, no matter how many stories I craft in my head, they don’t stay with me. When I have time to sit down and write, even now, it’s all completely gone. I might remember a phrase or two I was thinking of using, but it always sounds out of place, dry, uninteresting, or it’s just plain not enough to get me rolling.

To those of you still hanging in there with me, thank you. I am still trying and constantly hoping to make more regular appearances.

Never give up on a dream just because of the time it will take to accomplish it. The time will pass anyway.
~ Earl Nightingale